I hate you...

I wrote this one after a girl hurt me pretty badly...as you can see, it rather upset me. Haha. Wow, I can't believe that was so recent...it feels like years ago, I've kind of forgotten about it. But hey, things like that make good poems, right? Enjoy!


I hate you.
Every hair on your head,
Every shimmer in your eyes,
Every smile in every picture
Fuels an unquenchable flame
Inside my heart.
It wants to burn the letters
We sent to each other
For all those years,
Burn the memories
Like photographs
Pasted on the walls of my mind,
Burn every word
And every lie
As if they were each a match
Meant to start the flame
That would warm our life.

But now…
Now you have given
The fuel to the arson,
You have laid matchstick
Upon matchstick
And soaked our future
With gasoline.
Thus the flames jump
And envelop every wall,
Every crossbeam and floorboard.
The rooms are bare,
Caught in the emptiness
Of misguided hope.
But even with nothing to burn
The flames reach ever higher
And grow ever more strong
Until nothing is left
Save the smoldering ashes
On an empty foundation.
And so I am lost
In the fury of hatred.

And so it consumes me.
It fills me with anguish,
Leaving me feeling all the more empty,
Forcing me to scream into the darkness
Cursing the heavens
For the love that still lingers on.
For what is hatred
But a love lost
And not let go.
I could keep from hating you
If only I never loved you…
If only I did not love you still…